while am writing this, am not sure how i really felt. am damn tired, exhausted, bloody confuse, headache, guilty... urghh..
how am i supposed to correct this?
how to explain to a guy that u actually treat him or think of him only as a friend. only as a friend, when he seems like... have more feeling than just a friend to me. yea from his smses i can say so, but am not sure though. dont want to be called a heartbreaker again. yet, dont want to hurt his feelings by being rude not replying his smses or picking up his phone call. yeah, i did reply his smses, but i reply simple-simple only. no bunga2 one. now i regret that i ever reply his first sms, which i thought was very casual and wont lead to any 'other' situation. if he also think of me only as a friend, then, its fine. but, if not, die lor.
and now while composing this paragraph, am checking out pic of a guy who i admire, adore and like. ~giggling.. alone. haih..