I am at my very very very cranky mood and decided to get myself to write here. even dah melepaskan rase tak puas hati to my husband, to shafinaz, am still feeling bit ijfgvdnsjfhs
patutnya tak bagus tulis hal kerja kat blog. senang di baca orang... tapi.. :(((((((
semalam aku got annual review with development manager ku.. kat secret recipe.. kalo aku tau dia blh claim, dah ajak p makan mahal2 lagi.
work wise almost everything is ok. -- kot.. dont care lah!
however, ade beberape perkara yg terasa a bit tak puas hati. hm aku disuruh lebih busybody. dont just sit at my plc and do my work. aku termenung. speechless. bukan ke aku dibayar ber**** ringgit per day untuk bekerja? hati menggerutu. i did talk to others. esp those who sit around me. i did helped them even its not my client to support, even ade yg dapat comment "very satisfied" from client sbb aku tolong resolved issue dia. bukan nya i cant accept teguran or nasihat, tapi... i hate busybodies and i am asked to be one. damn it! what does it has anything to do with my work?
what i said? diam je.
dah la nak move from developing to maturing tak blh. maybe blm maturing since aku masih kanak2.. haha. beberapa perkara lagi dibincangkan hingga membuat air mata aku bergenang-genangan (whatever that is). bukan sbb kena marah, tapi cam tak puas ati and i just dont know how to spil it out.
Its just that since boss aku kate why aku cam ade yg tak satisfy (after review abes), insist aku to cakap jgk, aku just say... this whole filling-up-review-form thingy is just nonsense. it seems to me, sape pandai buat essay, goreng menggoreng then you'll get promoted. what have u done for the past year, depends on what you wrote in the bloody six rows in the form. urgh.
i can kiss my increment goodbye, i suppose...
T-S***** cam menarik jgk nih... benefit cam Sh*ll. erm...
buat yg tak memahami. maapkan saye. saye geram.. sangat.. mungkin org lain ok je.. saye cuma kurang blh terima di saat ini.. sgt emo.. sgt pissed off.