Thursday, June 11, 2009

something in the past


i went thru my pictures that i kept in this notebook. terjumpa gambar2 lama. lama sgt2. teringat sekejap, di suatu ketika, masa mula2 kerja. aku dah masuk kategori sgt2 give up dgn my work, aku almost decide to sambung study.

not a bad choice. even smp sekarang sometimes my mum still tanya whether i tak nak mengajar ke. i said i don't have the passion & patience. mau nyer anak org asyik kena sergah ngan aku (ada hati nak bukak kindergarten). tapi ada yg kata, ade ke org takut dgn cikgu sekecil aku. heeee. my mum said, teaching in uni tak sama dgn di sekolah.

but i didn't apply any uni. i just requested for their prospectus. read it and kept it well. (now all dah dikasi to uncle Tong). ada satu uni tu aku berkenan sikit sbb its called SHU :P sheffield hallam uni. hampeh kan, pilih uni pun main2 je. yet. i didn't apply any. i also would have to sit for toefl before applying any. nak cari sponsor pun tak senang unless aku start teaching as tutor at local uni dulu kot, itu pun uni yg willing to sponsor further study in uni. when this and that have to be done first before i got to apply, lama2 aku lupa kan niat sambung study. kenapa tak uni local? yea. masa tu aku teringin nak smbg study just sbb gatal nak merasa dok tmpt org. tak payah p ofis ngadap client yg suka wat aku hangin. its not so much with the study, im not rajin in studying since long ago. its just one of the way to lari dari masalah yg sedang melanda masa tu. teruk betul!

menyesalkah aku?

mungkin tidak. segala yang berlaku ade hikmahnya. that was a phase in my life. maybe i'll come to the same phase again satu masa nanti. saat2 terasa gatal nak smbg study walaupun sgt mls study.

sekarang ni, pikir nak study for certification pun buat aku yawn semahunya. itu belum start bukak training material tuh. ape la nak jadi. tapi for this certification, aku mmg nak ambil. try je. fail pun takpe le. i just want to give it a try. takkan maju kalo sendiri takmo work for it, kan? mcmn diri nak maju if asyik ngantuk? lorgh.

hari tu aku terbaca satu blog, motivator's blog. he wrote about how we always get so down on Monday, with all our monday blues and all. then, how we celebrate when friday is coming. its as though we could just be happy for 2 days in a week where we are given 7 days a week to enjoy, cherish and work our ass out to make everything a success (life, business etc). of course he put all the words nicely, with more good points which i should be able to figure out but i never force myself to think of it before. come to think of it, he's right. (however, from time to time you might still see me enjoying friday (its ok, right?) and be down on monday). i'm just a human being. i have my ups and downs too. yet, i'll try to be more positive. like, i love my job soooo much! (uwah... surprise surprise :o).

aih, this entry has been going on and on where i just membebel all along. eih, its my blog lor. here is where i can pour all the thoughts of mine, no matter how silly they are.

have a good day, all. and.... tomorrow is a friday :D.

peace!!!!

2 comments:

SueN said...

hmmm.....masih blum terlambat pun kalu ko nk samb study....coz ilmu tak kan putus...setiap hari kite belajar benda yg br tanpa kite sedari...

zura lias said...

jom le sambung study..aku baru antar surat terime sambung study walaupun aku tau aku nie malas belajar..just nak cabar diri senirik..hihihihiihihihih...